Momma

In quiet moments my mind starts to wander...I want it to, yet I don't.

I think of you.

I think of the good times and the bad times.

So much laughter.

So many tears.

You were always there for me.

I thought you always would be.

I never dreamed you would be gone.

The shock is wearing off and the foreverness is setting in.

This is harder.

Much harder.

I want to pick up the phone and call you.

I want to hear your voice say 'hi sweetie'.

I want to ask the stupid questions that you can only ask your mother and not get laughed at.

I want a hug.

I miss you.

I love you always.

God Works in Mysterious Ways

Coincidence...I think not.

So on Saturday nights after church a group of us go out to eat.

Tonight we went to Casa Rodriquez in downtown Bryan.

Whenever we go somewhere, Alex ALWAYS has some kind of toy animal with him (unless it is a frog, those are usually real).

Alex loves animals...he says that is what he was created for and that they need him.

Tonight the animal of choice was Rusty the Racoon, a small beanbag racoon.

He was playing with it in the restraunt and then left it there.

None of us were thinking about it as we stood outside for a while talking. Then we were walking to our car in the middle of downtown Bryan and a real live racoon goes running across the street in front of us.

Really, what are the odds.

Of course Alex takes off running after it screaming the whole way "a racoon, did you see that". The racoon sneaks off into the sewer.

Then I asked Alex if he got Rusty and he said no and ran back into the restraunt to get it.

I knew at the time that seeing the racoon prompted me to remember Alex's racoon but when we got home I really started thinking and went in to talk to the boys.

I told them that I didn't think it was a coincidence that we saw that racoon. We started talking about how God put that racoon there at the exact moment we went by so that Alex would not forget Rusty...it gives me goosebumps just typing this.

We had a great discussion about how much the Lord loves us and cares about us...every detail of our lives.

He knows every thought that we have, every thing that we do and every want and desire in our lives.

O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD. Psalm 139:1-4

I told them how we need to recognize that it is the Lord doing these things and not just a coincidence that they happen.

It was super sweet and then Alex said next time he wants to take a shark with him.

Watch out residents of Bryan!!!